I found a lump.
I was dealing with pain in my breast; it was really bothering me. It would be worse some days than others, and I tried to push it out of my mind and forget it. I avoided even touching the area. I was scared about it, to be honest.
Cancer. It took my father’s life; my uncle, aunt, grandmother, and grandfather had it. It has been something in the cobwebs of my mind that lurks there in the darkness like the devil it is. I have broken that curse off of my life. I have pleaded the Blood of Jesus over myself and my family and have put an end to it. But that didn’t stop the enemy from messing with me anyway.
I finally went to the doctor. Yes. It was a lump; the fears I denied having were now slapping me in the face. I was immediately scheduled for a mammogram and an ultrasound. I tried to calm my mind and prayed, asking the Lord to give me peace, but fear was hiding behind every thought.
I realized this is why people don’t want to go to the doctor. They are terrified to hear that something is wrong. Paralyzed by fear.
After my tests, I received a call from my doctor explaining to me that everything was benign, and I was all clear. Nothing serious, and it would just go away on its own. And it did. Thank you, Jesus—just a scare.
But then I got another lump, and another lump, and another. At one point, I had a total of 5 in both breasts. And whenever I went to the doctor, the enemy tried to play mind games with me. Yet, I felt stronger in my faith each and every time. I found verses I would speak over my body out loud. I continued to get the tests done, renew my mind, and defeat fear. No cancer is going to take this body. And each and every time, the tests came back “benign.”
Over the next couple of years, I found a lump in my arm. And another in my leg. And I had kept track of the lumps that had come and gone… 19 of them in my breasts alone. Freakin enemy.
QUESTION: How do you live in peace and trust Jesus for healing when your body is giving you hell?
Here is what I have learned:
- FEAR IS A LIAR.
I can deal with sickness. I can deal with a bad diagnosis. I can deal with pain. But I don’t want to do it in fear. The FEAR steals away your confidence in the Lord. It robs you of your hope. When I have hope in the Lord, I can face anything.
“Hope is the oxygen of the human soul. We suffocate without it.” Dr. Michael Maiden
I had to learn how to SILENCE fear in my life. Every whisper, thought, inkling, or glimpse of fear inside me had to be obliterated. I began to laugh at the enemy’s attempts to get me to take this fear back. It became comical how many lumps I got. Fear is a liar, a demon, and we don’t play its game.
John 14:27 “Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled, and do not be afraid.”
2. DO WHAT YOU CAN DO.
I know so many women who avoid doctor check-ups, routine exams, follow-up appts, and further testing because they are just afraid of what will be found. Think about this…
What if you are worried about things that aren’t even issues? What if you go to the doctor and, heaven forbid, are told you are a perfectly healthy human being who needs to lose 20 pounds? Worried for nothing. The doctor said, “Cut back on caffeine; that could contribute to the lump problem.” BLASPHEMY!! Jk. I decided to listen.
What if you get a diagnosis but then get answers and solutions? And the worst-case scenario, you get just flat-out BAD NEWS… You can get on top of doing what you need to do to move towards overcoming it. Avoidance creates more problems and allows more time for the enemy to brew fear into your thinking. Just go to the darn doctor. Get help. Get answers. Get peace of mind. Take charge of your life and DO WHAT YOU CAN DO.
3. TRUST THE LORD WITH THE RESULTS.
As I left the doctor after my 1st, 2nd, 3rd, 4th , 9th, breast lump… I had received information that I didn’t like. Information that worried me.
I had a lengthy wait for further testing and then had to wait on the results of that testing… lots of time to deal with my thinking. Do you know what I decided?
First, I was going to pray and believe in God for healing, for God is my healer. But secondly, no matter what the results are, I won’t be afraid. I will trust HIM with those results.
Identify the worst-case scenario and lay it before the Lord. Deal with the fear; surrender it.
If I MUST go through the worst-case scenario, I will do it unafraid because the Lord is with me. If the Lord would have me suffer, I will do it unafraid, for He is with me, and I trust Him with whatever is in the cup of my life.
Isaiah 41:10 says:
“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”
I really do believe that the lumps were a test of my faith…to FEAR NOT. However, He gave me the grace to overcome that fear and turn it into a faith like I have never experienced before.
I asked my ministry team, my closest friends, to lay hands on me and to pray for my healing. I think I waited too long to do this; I believe in the power of prayer… maybe I was embarrassed about it, or perhaps I didn’t want to make it a big deal; I am not sure. Either way, I decided enough was enough and asked them to pray. I was done with this stupidity. After that, the lumps gradually stopped growing, and now I have been about two years LUMP FREE.
Girls, we cannot roll over and play dead, hiding from life. Take it head-on, in the strength of the Lord. Take responsibility for your health. If you live with fear, repent of it, and proclaim scripture over your life every time that fear tries to take back over. Use the Word of God like medicine to defeat the enemy’s plans to hold you down. We have been given the authority; use it, walk in it, hold your head up high with confidence in your Savior. He NEVER fails.
Wow this was so inspiring! 🥹 my mom has tumors in her breast (20 something actually) and she’s had a couple surgeries already for the ones that weren’t benign, but I was never fearful for my mom and I still am not. Now the doctors found cancer cells in her skin so she has to undergo chemo again, but even then I am not fearful. It wasn’t till she told me I should get tested that I said NO! Lol 😂 the fear began when the possibility of me having to undergo all the things she has that I avoided it. 🥴 I didn’t/don’t want to deal with doctors and tests, but I do believe in his healing and his blood, so I won’t give into my fear and do what I need to do.💪🏼 Thank you Ps. Annie 🩷
Wow!! Let’s believe for complete healing for your momma! And no fear for you girl… kick the enemy right in the face with all that. 🔥💪🙏
God is so good and faithful! Thankful for your healing and generational curses broken!